RAIN RAIN GO AWAY

Is it just me or are the people's around me getting erratic these days. Their temper is just like the weather man. But i guess we all have our days.

I so wanna a break. I'm dying for a trip abroad where I'm in a new culture and environment. I seriously want it. I feel like escaping from the world for a while where i retreat to somewhere to recuperate.

I've been reading this book and it got me thinking. Its funny how human beings are like. When things go all smooth sailing, we never stop to thank whoever that made our life live so happily. We just carry on living. But when things don't go our way, we start praying and asking for help. I guess we humans are like, we tend to be complacent at times and take things for granted. Just like the people around us who we thought will always be there for us when we need their help. We all make the same mistakes.

A relationship between you and someone is not just based on having a meal with that person and asking how he/she is, is based on effort. The effort that 2 person put into the relationship. This was what my daddy told me.

It's funny how whenever i see dark clouds in the sky and it look like it's going to pour, it will always remind me of you. I will always remember that incident in the rain. That memory belonged only to both of us.

On my way to the train station one morning, I was down with a cold. With me in my hands were baggages that weighed a ton. It was pouring that morning. I made my way to the train station despite the down pour. By the time i survived making my way to the station, my clothes, shoe and myself were soaked with the rain. I figured i should head home now and get a hot shower since i'm already sick.

I left the station and was on my way home. The phone in my pocket rang, it read your name. The name on the screen brought assurance to me. An assurance that no matter what, I know you'll be there somehow somewhere. I picked up that call and we spoke. You asked me where I was and offered to pick me up. I told you it's alright since i'm already heading home. You asked me to go have a good rest and take care and then we hung off.

After that call, despite the wind blowing into my face and my clothes soaked to the bone, I smiled within me. I smiled because you called.

I thank God for you daddy :) You're the man of my life

In fact, I thank God for everyone. Everyone made my life interesting :)

MAKING TIME

if we watch a replay on how we led our lives, it will most likely be this sequence. We came to this earth as a baby then as we grew older we went to school. As years goes by, the education and stress gets higher. When we leave school, we then carve our career and unknowingly get caught up in the rat race. After that once we stop working, we will be having white hairs on our head and making appointments to have our dentures make.

That lifestyle applies to almost everyone. Somehow we rarely stop the fast pace of our live and go to make time for our love ones. I guess this is something that myself and some others should learn. Whenever things goes our way, we get too caught up with things and not treasure and make time for the important people around us. Only when trouble comes do we turn to those we once neglected.

I really want to make time for people i love.

LOVE

Being in love, being together means something. It means that out of so many millions of people, we finally found someone that we fell in love with. Someone that will love us back. Someone that will be there to go through thick and thin. Isn't it tough to just find this someone?

But why is it that when you finally found this someone, at times we just take things for granted. Thus things start to sour a little. We tend to throw tantrums with one another, we fight and quarrel.

These things may strengthen the bond but too much of it breaks the bond. So i guess if i really love this person, i will have to accept and love him for who he is. It's not easy, but i will do my best.

At least i tried, rather than not trying.

RANDOM!

These couple of days i seem lost at times. I feel lost with the future and the present. Weird. I used to not think about the future too soon but now it seems like everyone is asking me regardless of whatever that is related to the future.

It scares me a little at times. I may be 21 but i feel that i'm still not that mature enough to handle so many issues at a time.

This period of time is when things get busy and somehow i feel that we lack good communication. You're feeling stress and tired while i'm guessing about how you're feeling and why sometimes we both behave this way.

To me something means a lot to me but to you it means just a normal thing to do. I guess it's the sleepless nights and burn out moments that made us feel this way recently. Things haven't been very smooth but oh well, a rough path will then lead to a strong bond.

I still remember telling you that a rough path lead to a strong bond, but you said, a too rough path might break the bond.

you've been there for me during the days when i threw tantrum and make a big fuss over certain things. you've heard many of my complaints as well. Though at times it kind of irritate me cause i'm waiting for your advice and opinion but i'm still thankful you hear.

i really hope that this tough times will go away soon. I really miss the past between us at times and i know it will be back soon once everything tough and difficult is over :)

Updates!

Updates! cheez, it seems like it's been years since i updated my blog. Seem like it's getting dusty.

You know at times when you feel like giving up. When you feel like just waving the white flag, have you ever thought about " so that's what life is all about?". I mean is life all about just study, work, grades, survival? That got to be more than that. You only have one time to live so why not live it well? Live it happily and peacefully man. The world is turbulent enough so why add more problems to your life right. Just live like there's no tomorrow!

graduation is coming and it will then mark the end of the polytechnic years. Seems like it's time to grow up already. At times it feel likes it was just yesterday that we as freshmen entered poly. And at times polytechnic days feel draining. Like tough modules, deadlines, tests etc.

But now i guess all is going to be over soon. It'll be a journey that i'll look back. Both good and bad happened in the days at SP. Tears flow and smiles worn. Though the journey to school was seriously a long one but indeed i don't regret being in SP. Because of the moments spent and the bond that was created.

I really Thank God for the people that i got to know through SP. Classmates, buddy classmates etc. Next thursday please come soon so that i can play with a peace of mind.

Woohoo~~ No more APC (for now)