DON'T EXPECT

School have started and the heat is on now. There are so much things to do and yet so little time. I'm starting to think if i made the right decision back then to come here. Things seem a lot toughier and i afraid that i may not be strong enough to handle everything. But i guess things are never easy.

Somehow or the other, I'm feeling really drained out. I'm very tired of standing alone at times. I'm very tired of shitty attitude that people give. The Lord say offer your other cheek when someone slaps your right cheek. But am I really capable of doing that? I doubt so. They say give and not expect. But with human nature, is that possible?

I don't enjoy having my mind messed with. Kindly bring it straight.

MOODY DAYS GO AWAY

so much have happen recently. I would say mostly not very good stuff. I wonder what's the reason. Is it all me? Is it that i'm not good enough, not understanding enough? I guess you're tired of a lot of things like things at work, outside at times and some disagreements we had.

So many things have been on my mind. The term just started and I'm still in holiday mood. I have no mood for proper stuff except slacking. I've been very short tempered for some reason and at times i feel tired. I feel stretched.

I want this period of time to be over. I really do or else I don't think I would be able to take things for long. I miss the old days.

If one doesn't have any expectations, one will not have any disappointment. So it's better for me not to expect cause I don't want to get disappointed.

crap, i am so not looking forward to tomorrow.

anw just a random thought, i can't believe what happened today! i can't believe i did all those things that i didn't believe in. crap, what's going on. i need a time out!

NO TITLE POST

i'm simply not in the mood for anything. Because of you.

I'M BORED

It's already the month of august. Which means the school term is starting soon. Procrastination will also begin sooner or later. I felt like i haven't even started playing. There are so many things that i wanna do still but time does not permits. Oh well, I'm kind of tired to type. Shall just upload some pics.

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY

Is it just me or are the people's around me getting erratic these days. Their temper is just like the weather man. But i guess we all have our days.

I so wanna a break. I'm dying for a trip abroad where I'm in a new culture and environment. I seriously want it. I feel like escaping from the world for a while where i retreat to somewhere to recuperate.

I've been reading this book and it got me thinking. Its funny how human beings are like. When things go all smooth sailing, we never stop to thank whoever that made our life live so happily. We just carry on living. But when things don't go our way, we start praying and asking for help. I guess we humans are like, we tend to be complacent at times and take things for granted. Just like the people around us who we thought will always be there for us when we need their help. We all make the same mistakes.

A relationship between you and someone is not just based on having a meal with that person and asking how he/she is, is based on effort. The effort that 2 person put into the relationship. This was what my daddy told me.

It's funny how whenever i see dark clouds in the sky and it look like it's going to pour, it will always remind me of you. I will always remember that incident in the rain. That memory belonged only to both of us.

On my way to the train station one morning, I was down with a cold. With me in my hands were baggages that weighed a ton. It was pouring that morning. I made my way to the train station despite the down pour. By the time i survived making my way to the station, my clothes, shoe and myself were soaked with the rain. I figured i should head home now and get a hot shower since i'm already sick.

I left the station and was on my way home. The phone in my pocket rang, it read your name. The name on the screen brought assurance to me. An assurance that no matter what, I know you'll be there somehow somewhere. I picked up that call and we spoke. You asked me where I was and offered to pick me up. I told you it's alright since i'm already heading home. You asked me to go have a good rest and take care and then we hung off.

After that call, despite the wind blowing into my face and my clothes soaked to the bone, I smiled within me. I smiled because you called.

I thank God for you daddy :) You're the man of my life

In fact, I thank God for everyone. Everyone made my life interesting :)

FORGIVE & FORGET

at times it seems weird that though you are surrounded by the people you love and trust, but somehow you still can't seem to tell them what's wrong. you can't seem to say what's bugging you inside. And thus, you just decided to keep it to yourself as things will seem so much easier.

You're not alone if you feel this way.

Anyway beside from that, I've been telling myself that I need to forget and forgive you.

I need to let go of all the grudges that I bear.

I need to forget all the things you've done to hurt us.

I need to forgive your wrong doings for there is no one perfect on earth.

Otherwise I'll be at the end suffering with anger and you'll just be partying.