NEED TO LEARN

I need to learn how to be tough and not get bullied.
I need to learn how to strong and not crumble.
I need to learn how to stand on my own and not be affected by others.
I need to learn how to defend for myself.
I need to learn how to fight back if I have done nothing wrong.
I need to learn how to be my old me.

I miss my old self.

Just a random thought

MONDAY BLUES!

though i'm at home on a monday but i'm still having big time pre tuesday blues if there is such a thing. Every morning before i set off to work, I need to have that strength end enthusiasm for work but i can't find any now. I guess i'm only purely working for the money and the cash ain't that good anyway.

Enough procrastination i guess. I'll just suck it in and endure. Tough times don't last but tough people do :) A lot of news have been going on now but i can't be bothered cause i feel that there isn't a need to. People talk and who cares cause they don't know me so i need to learn to not bother so much about people's impression. It'll only get me down so what for.

I have the urge to go for a feast! Like a real eating feast with shopping! Argh, i need retail therapy and good food!

MAD FOR NO REASON

I was angry. You were tired. We weren't talking and now we're piss. Piss for the wrong reasons and probably there wasn't even one to started out with.

I was angry with a friend and so angry that i didn't wanna talk. You were dead tired and frustrated that you didn't feel like talking. None of us started a conversation and the ice was then unbroken.

I offered you food and drinks for fear of you feeling hungry or thirsty but you turned me down despite me stooping to a low level in order to know that you're alright.

I rushed out of the house to pick you up at our usual meeting place after rushing all the chores just to make sure that i'm not late when meeting you cause i know you won't be glad.

I know you sacrificed as well. Your time, your sleep and many more.

Why am I writing so much to trying to make you to understand when you don't even read it. Or should I say you don't even know the add for it.

Peace.